Holiday should be a relaxing and happy, but I dun feel the happiness at all. Everyday dwelling on the same thing again and again. Sometimes will just break down and tear. I still dun get it why you do that, it hurts me more than you do. Your attitude change a lot, I not sure if you are too stressed up or what. Well, you could tell me if you are. I wonder if I make a mistake that made you like these. If yes, I am really really really very sorry for that. Can you change back to your old self? I really dun like the new you.